Ancestors Of Mine

This song had to be written. Why?

Because my grandmother told me to.

Here is the timeline of what transpired.

Audio Journal

10/07/2022

04:33:52

It’s not unusual for me to have voice notes as audio journals. I learned that it is a great way for me to really access the way I’m feeling. I hear things, tones, and thought patterns that may not have been understood otherwise. The referenced voice note was quite long, but there is a portion I will share.

My maternal grandmother came to visit me. The last time I experienced it was right after her funeral over 20 plus years ago. She talked about many things including allowing all parts of me out, allowing love in, and a message or communication that would be coming in…

During that time, I saw a releasing or freeing of my ancestors… through me. What I heard was ‘Opening Freedoms Door‘.

Highlights:

Opening Freedoms Door

Strength of my ancestors in me

Strong women

Resilience

Resolve to do what’s needed

Stand proud with head held high

Opening the gate and things pouring out

Rushing wind

Dam or door opened

Allowing freedom and peace

Been held in bondage or hell, allowing all to come out

OVERWHELMING SENSE OF LOVE 💗

Later That Day

Brothers Koren

“The Choir”

email

10/07/2022

16:31

Link to email

“Our Choir theme this month is Dreams.

Dreaming is a core function of our being; it is a defining feature of life as human beings. Most of us experience dreaming each night, where symbols and archetypes descend to us through the subconscious realm. We also experience the magnetic power of holding a vision or a dream, especially when that dream is for a greater purpose.

The Australian Aborigines preserved their culture in a state of awareness they called The Dream Time, which transcended their daily life and got them in touch with their ancestors and the natural environment at an energetic level.

What are you dreaming?“

Response to the email

“My maternal grandmother came to me this morning (the only other time I experienced that was right after her funeral 20+ years ago) …and then I saw a releasing/freeing of my ancestors… through me 😭😭”

Fast Forward

11/14/22

I called my mother to ask for my grandmothers’ middle names. We then spoke about some significant generational occurrences. Things that were quite enlightening. After our discussion of how my grandmother stated I would be releasing generational trauma, my mother recounted being at her mother’s bedside during hospice care. She witnessed her mother reliving unresolved childhood emotional trauma. My mother then stated, “I want to release. I don’t want to be on my deathbed dealing with the pain.” That touched me at my core…and I felt a sense of honor to be on this journey, for ALL of us.

As the day progressed, I felt so strongly that I was to write a song about these strong ancestral women in my life. The women who faced so much abuse, pain, and neglect and yet remained strong and resilient.

I had already decided on other songs to record, but that would have to change.

That Evening

11/14/22

That evening, I had a Songwriters Journey session. I had already decided on the songs I would record. As I discussed what had transpired, Thorald said, “This is important …you have to do this (ancestral) song.” Then he asked, “do you have a melody?” My answer, No. This was followed by, “do you have lyrics?” To which I replied to, No. Yet, I knew it had to happen.

Not only that, but it also needed to be the first song recorded.

11/19/22

I began working on transposing the meaning of the first and middle names of my mother, and maternal and paternal grandmothers. Evelyn Y; Melvise P; and Mary M. I also pulled the information from the ancestors’ audio journal.

I had no melody or how it would go together, but I knew I wanted to tie their names into the song. So, I wrote out the sentence or statement the names formed.

SWJ Session

01/10/23

I don’t want to spoil the stages of the Song Writers Journey (SWJ), so I’ll just say that on 01/10/2023 the atmosphere was such that chords were played by Thorald, and Isaac invited me / asked me “…What is the first note or melody that comes to you, when you think of your ancestors.” And at that time, a melody flowed, mixed with a lot of tears. (and I don’t cry in front of people)

It was totally overwhelming. That night, I felt and saw a rush of ancestors, breaking free from bondage. It could be perceived as cinematic; I only recognized a few faces. The only way I can explain it is …. very intense and meaningful. I couldn’t stop shaking.

THE LYRICS AND MELODY CAME TOGETHER

01/15/23